Wednesday, February 27, 2008

This has been a difficult week. My last post had Randy and I in the middle of a wonderful conference. Saturday night I received a phone call that a birthmother that I have been working with for the last several months had gone into labor. The next morning I received a phone call that there had been severe complications from a c-section and that she was dying. The baby was healthy but his mother was not going to make it through the day. I went quickly to the hospital. By the time I was there, she was no longer responsive. The nurse said it was possible that she could still hear. I had seen pictures of the baby and I told her how beautiful he was. I told her she had done a wonderful thing by making a plan for this baby's life and that we would do everything possible to make certain that her wishes for him were fulfilled. I found myself with my hand on her forehead praying for peace and mercy. She passed away Sunday evening. In the days that have followed there has been great grief and shock and diverse reactions as to what should happen now. My heart is heavy and I am tired. I love my job and I am thankful for the provision that comes through it. I love being in a position to minister hope and to be light in the darkness. Even so, today I find myself wrestling and striving to find the energy to press on. I know the Lord will renew me tomorrow but this is where I am today.

6 comments:

Jenna said...

Dear Kelly,

That is so heartbreaking. I am so very sorry - for your loss, for the birthmother's family's loss, and for the baby's loss. I pray that her adoption plan can be carried out. I pray that God will give you peace in this situation. I know that you bring peace and hope to so many people - I believe that she felt your presence and that you helped to bring her some peace at the end.

It is hard work to be there for birthmothers. So many emotions! I have worked in the adoption field since 1994. I worked with birthmothers for many years, but I work mostly with adoptive parents now. I am also an adoptee. I am so thankful for my life, and I know that people like you have helped many children have a loving and stable home. I know that you are making a tremendous difference in so many lives. I hope that you find your energy again soon. I will be praying for you.

Kendra said...

Praying for renewed energy for you tonight, sister. Love you so much. So very sorry about this sweet family . . .

Becky Reeves said...

Hurting for you, Kelly. Praise God for how He is using you as a blessing and minister to others, especially in this situation. I know He will be faithful to give you all you need and I'm praying that you have the courage to press on until a place of peace and rest comes. Love you!

Greg Bailey said...

Kelly,
May God give you grace and peace to minister to those in need! You are making a difference in the Kingdom. Persevere. Our side wins! Blessings sister!

Tracey Ries said...

I am praying for you! Love you. May God fill you up today!

Donna said...

Oh Kelley - I am so sorry. I haven't been on your blog in several days and just read this post. How precious to know how God had made provision for this sweet baby boy.